Sunday, May 10, 2009
Happy Mother's Day Rose Marie....
Happy Mother's Day to all you mothers out there; also for the fathers who support the mothers. Today was a very difficult day for me...my first one without Mom here on earth. Maya Rose reminded me that she is and always will be with me in my heart and my heart's work. Yesterday Ken and I help Chance and Erin with dinner for the "movers" as they attempted to collect, move and re-create and re-assemble furniture in its new location. Cole is two but has made four moves successfully and he assisted his grandpa in every possible way. "Come on Grandpa and Come on Grandma" have become heart warming words that I embrace with my heart. Today we took dinner over to Tina's family and we had a relaxing afternoon around the table the Maya, Sabrina and Hannah helped with the salad, table setting and frosting the cupcakes. The sunshine filled the backyard and we were all delighted when Hannah shared her new "froggie" underpants while she made me a special book. I spoke to my sister and my baby brother today just to re-connect with them and tell them how much I love them. In July we are all planning to meet in Louisville for the big family reunion...the first year the hole in our hearts is so large you can almost feel the pain and heartache even long distant. I have spent the last two days with music from my past and with the Alison Krause's "Union Station in Louisville" CD, "The Traveling Willburys" and a little of this and a lot of that. Music seems to ooze through my pores and speed into my toes and makes me want to dance...made you look.
Tonight I began watching the HBO's "Alzheimer's" five part special. Yes, it is enlightening and frightening at the same time but for those of you who have not ventured into this possible chapter in your lifetime you may want to catch this special. Maria Shriver is one of the producers and lives with this essence in transformation of humanity; her father has the disease and fails to recognize his family anymore. This thought provoking series will open up dialogues with those you love and may help assist you when have to face these decisions, information does not make it easier to digest but knowing we are not alone and help is available for families.
I was fortunate enough to be with my mother Rose Marie as she passed through this veil...I cried when I spoke these words...You can go now Momma; but she will continue to live in my life's work and journeys. I am the woman I am today because of her...determined, persistent, empathetic and growing in strength of my heart. I miss you dear Lady. Imagine and Live in Peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart