Wednesday, December 2, 2009

a cold gray day...but we may have snow soon...




I need to make my Goodwill run to check for a few more vintage fabrics, buttons and handmade design elements. In my background I am hearing the news about Afghanistan and sending in more troops...we have so much unemployment in our country ...could we begin here in our home country and attempt to solve the issues we have never faced before in my lifetime. I pray for Obama and his dedicated staff he has around him in these darkest of days. Iraq, Afghanistan and what will we be asked to fix tomorrow? ...and can any of this really be fixed and repaired equally for men, women and children? I believe in the power of ONE but it is issues like today's dilemmas appear to be overwhelming. My brother reminds me that we need to care for our young ones and young families, remain involved in making our community a healthy environment for all and then give back where we can to world events. I think I am a bit overwhelmed so I need to get away from the news and back to meditating with my quilting stitches...one stitch at a time...one bead at a time.

I have written a letter today for recommendation for a high school senior applying for an Art scholarship at Ohio University. I have known her for seven years and appreciate her progression and acceptance ...no, her embracement of diversity. Her parents are very supportive of her dream to explore a life in the Arts and her father is a painter and jazz musician. The gap between the" haves"and the "have nots" is growing so making the cost factor a deciding factor for who will go to college or art school. As an artist who worked on campus and had two part time jobs back in the 1970's I was lucky enough to graduate without enormous loans that would have to be paid back. I am sending out white light of possibilities for her acceptance and assistance into this program.

The full moon was glorious last night and Dog in the Hole blogspot reminded me of my fascination for the Native Americans beliefs about the movement and importance of the Full Moons. I may try to create a line of ATC's ...something small , immediate and do-able to celebrate the power of lunar cycles. I had sort of forgotten these folklore legends ...I attempted to write a poem for the month of January back in 1990...I hope I can find it...it was before computers...an old typewriter was all I had. Each month's Full moon was a physical and spiritual affirmation for the indigenous peoples to plant, hunt, harvest, and celebrate the gifts of Nature. Beside the pull of the ocean tides and poetic inspiration for artists in their travels and works the sciences are just beginning to really understand our connections in the Universe. Imagine and Live in Peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

I love that boom boom POW!!!! The Black Eyed Peas are filling the room with their energies...



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I have been to the post office, the bank. Memory Lane a favorite thrift shop in my downtown, laminated an article about my work in the ODC traveling exhibit Best of 2009, picked up the half price remnants at JoAnn's fabric store, picked up my Plavix at the pharmacy...and finally did a full cart of grocery shopping. Ken carried all of this in the house as I dug into two thick pieces of Erin's homemade pizza she sent from her kitchen. Whew where does the day go? I also picked up some buttons, some bronze spirals for embellishments for my works, additional funky "words" on a special clearance and a new paper punch of JOY! The beautiful Victoria Secret Models are strutting their stuff complete with functional angel wings with the Black Eyed Peas providing their Peaceful messages in a rocking rhythm. The colors are vibrant the youthful thin bodies are filled with Joy beyond words...At one time I was thin and vibrant like these young spirits. "It is the same old song with a different beat since you are gone...." music is rolling down like a falling cascade of a waterfall. "Put your brain in your butt..." did I just hear the trainer say such a thing. "My butt is on fire right now" plus a lot of attitude to get in the best shape they can possibly be in ...OMG! what are we teaching our youthful women??? Screen debuts...finalists? runways...Is this really that much different in the jurying process we put ourselves through when we risk entering a juried exhibition. I have always felt hanging my work up for the public is just like walking in a room naked!!! We reveal more than we realize when we make our sacred marks visible for the world to scrutinize and evaluate.

No one has more fun than my grand daughter Morgan Elizabeth who is ten months old. She tasted her grandfather's homemade sweet potato pie for lunch today and her world is a lot brighter with this sweet treat. She may not be a Victoria Secret model just yet but she is the most beautiful little angel who rocks our world. I feel Joy rising just being in the room with her as she plays with her big brother Marshal Cole...this is the first day of their Advent calendar with only 24 more days until Christmas! I hope you all enjoyed the photos and now I need to get back to work. Imagine and Live in Peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart

I will try to photograph my new treasures tomorrow because I hope to STAY home and work on my projects and get Christmas on a roll at least on the first floor living area. Good Night sweet Princes and Princesses!

technical break in my chain...



We lost our land line for the telephone and so we also lost the dsl connection. I am not too sure what this really is but I felt lost without you all in my arms over the Internet. I did get some physical work completed, got more Christmas stuff out...Lord I have been a collector of bits and pieces of this and that. I made an incredible dinner for ken complete with a gravy to that rivals all the cooks on the TV! I did get to see Anne's Little Miracles in Art blog and her rainbow of an apron , I love to make aprons because they are an immediate satisfaction for the creator and the receiver... what is a pattern needed for? Go forth and just play with the colors! I tried to leave a comment but like other things it was not meant to be. Tonight is a FULL moon and the promises of gentle moonray energies will help me get back to somewhat normal dialogue. Please check out Seth's Altered Page for Secret Sundays as he work s to coordinate his next PULSE magazine. The generosity of these over 200 artists is amazing as they willingly and playfully offer up incredible techniques and inspirations is the true feeling of the holiday season for all. I will return tonight after I make my rounds to the bank and post office and many other little errands. Imagine and Live in Peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart

This is a collage I made several years ago called "Cornfucious" and is in the home of some dear friends. I had not seen it for years and it made me smile!

Sunday, November 29, 2009

a day to reconnect with past memories ...





Today we were quite the elves with the warm weather assisting us as we unloaded the numerous boxes of lights and trees and sleds. After a few hours our cabin was twinkling in sparkling stars, snowmen, trees and bright plaid ribbons fluttering in the winds as the rains slowly moved in for the night. As I opened each small music box I remembered the year we selected each one and how the girls would plead with us to play them one more time. I found their stockings and touched their special ornaments and I felt my heart swell as my memories flooded down my face is sweet salty tears. Colored papers and treasures burst open in the living room and I know tomorrow I will begin selecting appropriate papers for each grandchild's presents. I have not had a job for almost a year so I decided to keep the gifts simple and mainly handmade for each member of my family. A cupcake dress, and dinosaur pillow, and a few more selected pieces to be completed in the next week or so. For the older girls I have some warm and very cute things to wear in the New Year and with a little extra time I am hoping to select a memory gift that they will hold onto in the years to come. Their parents can buy their electronic doodads and games that I am not too sure how to play.

I have had a day with more... more... more boxes than I realized we have ever collected over the 23 years here in our cabin and if I close my eyes I can see Erin, Sherry and Tina flying down the stairs to see what Santa had delivered in his sleigh of eight tiny reindeer. I had decorated the Christmas breakfast table with red teddy bear tablecloth, my festive Holiday dishes and fresh homemade cinnamon waffles and hot chocolate ... I miss those mornings so much right now. My daughters are grown and living their lives with their beloved families and I am so proud. But for a moment I wish we could return to that first Christmas morning in our cabin on the Hill.

Today we have our health and wonderful, diverse families to love and they have given us six miracles...six beautiful grandchildren. Today we will have new rituals and new traditions to share with my greatest gifts in my life. Several artists have emailed me about my simple life but I have a favorite quote that says it so much better than I could have ..."Live simply so others may simply live. I live such a blessed life and putting up handmade ornaments from the past, unwrapping old Christmas cards, caressing a child's stocking...filled my heart with gratitude and joy. Imagine and Live in Peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart

Saturday, November 28, 2009

joy is rising and life is so good...









I will be short tonight because I have had an incredible couple of days starting with the celebration of Thanksgiving with my family. Then I came home to be here to light the courthouse on the square and the opening night of the Central Ohio Ballet Company's 8th production of the Nutcracker. I was a ticket taker on this evening and had time to pass out a few hugs to some dear families as they pass through my ticket line. The Holidays are definitely here and the Joy is ringing through out the city. I also attended a small intimate opening for Tony Reynolds miraculous wood turnings and furniture. He has experimented with the use of natural dyes for several of his vessels and they are stunning! Late on Friday night at 10:45pm I pulled up my driveway to literally drop into my warm soft bed!

Today I worked the matinee performance and yesterday was wonderful but today was GREAT. The small kinks were worked out and the performances seem to be growing stronger. At intermission I assisted my friend Liz Argyle with family portraits standing beside the large Nutcracker for Christmas memories for personalized Christmas cards. I came home checked my latest bills that have just arrived and had a quick bite and we headed over to the Argyles for Family game night. Life just does not get better but I am so tired I doubt that I will make much sense. I promise tomorrow to stay home, relax and catch up on my laundry and begin wrapping a few presents. I have the dining room table decorated and a small Christmas tree begin the family decorations. Now we can get out the Santas and snowmen to set out for the month of December...each one collected with a memory to collaborate a time and ceremony of our family. Forgive me I need to cut this short. Imagine and Live in Peace, Mary Helen Fernanadez Stewart

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

gratitude ... a simple thought that gives us all possibilities...







Ken made three of his four pies for tomorrow's dinner for Thanksgiving dinner. I made a fresh cranberry orange relish with walnuts, small bite sized pumpkin muffins with cream cheese frosting drizzled on top and finally only for my Ken ...I made his favorite...oyster dressing. Everyone is bringing a contribution to the menu and the children have a few arts and crafts projects plus a Disney movie while we all wait for the dinner bell. Tomorrow we will gather to share the gifts we are blessed to have but in the back of my mind I am sending affirmations and prayers to our men and women who are serving away from their families to ensure our freedoms and national safety. The families struggling to put food of any kind on their tables and the unfortunates who may have lost their jobs and homes. I do wish our media would zero in on how if each person reaches out to someone alone the circumstances would gently change for the better. I guess I am not all that interested in shopping on Black Friday in the malls: first money is tight and second I am hoping I will take the girls to Holiday Traditions at the Works to create their 2009 fused glass ornament. Then in the evening I am working with the Midland and opening night for the Nutcracker production. It is also the lighting of our courthouse on the downtown square with Santa arriving for the Holidays on top of a shiny firetruck. I realize this sort of small town stuff but this is what makes memories in our hearts. Have a blessed day with those you love and remember to call home to your family if you are unable to make the trip this season. I am going to start my handmade Christmas cards this weekend for my brothers and sisters. Ken has already created a DVD of his mother's 89th and had them in the mail yesterday. I wish I could be that efficient in my thought processes and delivery. Imagine and Live in Peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

today was one for patiently planning the Thanksgiving celebration...



I received this Scrap Award from my friend Anne in Peru, In. now I have to make a list of ten revealing 10 smack in your face truths about me!


I had some time for a little extra quiet calm time as I get physically and spiritually ready for the coming of the Holidays here in Newark, Ohio! I went down to retrieve my three funny snowman pendants that I created with a few friends at the Works Glass Studios. They have a child like appeal in my eyes and will be so much fun to wear in the next couple of months. I then found the new location of our St. Vincent de Paul's Thrift store. They are working very hard to provide a men's shelter for the homeless and a food pantry for nourishment for the many unemployed in the area. I found a few more fabric items and some small holiday supplies to use to decorate with the girls in the next couple of weeks. After this excursion I hit Michael's for some arts and crafts project for little boys to work on at the art table while the Turkey is in the oven. I purchased a new Martha Stewart paper punch of a Christmas tree ...arbor de Navidad...arbre de Noel. No matter what language you speak everyone loves the Christmas centerpiece of the home... the Christmas Tree. I stopped by my daughter's house to give them their craft projects for their Turkey day...the girls are off for six straight days for the Holidays. Tina was working from her home and the girls were very excited to have a real holiday so hopefully they will be able to attend Holiday Traditions to make their very own fused glass ornament at the Glass studios and attend the cookie decorating and a few other surprises ...fun things to explore while Mom and Dad work. I then met Ken for the BIG grocery shopping expedition..whew even with two of us the job was time consuming but we did it! I had a certificate for a $1o.oo that would expire from our Kohl's store tonight. I needed to get an exchange so I can start wrapping. I told you we had a very busy day!

Now I am home and the weather is showing visible signs that a frisky cold front is beginning to move in...well November is almost over and we have had very few cold days and nights. I have some snowman work to do while the breads are baking and the pie crusts are being rolled out. I want to sort and rearrange the combined dining/living room to set the mood for candle light and making the room festive in a simple mode of fashion. The openness of the room is a good change for us and we can make the space accessible for winter life in front of the fireplace. I have some more quilting stitches to complete before I can begin to add the delicious beads and embellishments to add another layer of metaphors on my Kath Walker piece.

I picked up the latest edition of Altered Couture and it is truly inspirational in the projects they present in a short 145 pages. It is nice to sit down and have a cup of tea and study methods to alter my own tired clothes ...they are not really worn out but I am tired of their appearance/looks. Skirts and dresses, tops and pants, jackets and vests and shoes plus all the accessories you could possibly dream. This magazine is a great jumping off point for the upcoming 2010 after the holidays close for this season.I look forward to the children's section since I will be making a christening gown by January 3 for Morgan's baptism. I am cutting up the flowing train from the wedding's dress and have a few ideas to make it a simple but elegant gown for her day.

It is almost midnight and I need to get to bed and try to sleep. We will be busy for the nest couple of days. Imagine and Live in Peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart

Monday, November 23, 2009

Joan Mitchell




Today is documentary day on the Sunndance channel and I was immediately attracted to a one hour movie 1992 "Joan Mitchell: A Portrait of an Abstract Painter" directed by Marion Cajori. I never had the opportunity to meet this gestural painter who remain true to her vision of abstract expressionism. Joan was born in Chicago in 1925 to Herbert Mitchell and Mario Strobel Mitchell. Her father was a very competitive man and made Joan very aware of the importance of "winning". Her mother was deaf and wrote poetry until her children were born...expectations from society of what is expected in "women's work. Family first and only...Joan stopped writing herself at the age of eleven...under the guidance of her father ...choose one hobby...and be the best in that area. So she chose to become a painter. Joan attended Smith College to study English and Literature. After a visit to Oxbow art colony in Michigan in the summers of 1942 and 1943 she transferred to the prestigious Art Institute of Chicago to receive her B.F.A.

After graduation she moved to New York and began exhibiting along side other New York artists. She attended Hans Hoffman's classes and very influenced by De Kooning's gestural approach to painting. She later traveled to France, Spain and Italy to return for M.F.A. at the Art Institute of Chicago. As she describes her life in her own words she lived a messy life in her relationships and art politics. After a divorce she moved to Paris, France and struggled with severe depression as she struggled to remain true to herself. In 1968 I was senior in high school and remember hearing about her move to Vetheuil, near Paris. The landscape was her inspiration and her ability to become one in the present with Nature's gentle movement from season to season. She chose to use bold colors as well as very bold brushstrokes in a time when contemporary artists were expressing themselves in charcoals and muted colors as well as black and white. Joan was the first American woman to have a solo exhibit at Mu see' d Art in 1982. She gave vivid insight to how difficult it was for a woman artist to be in exhibits...they had a quota system in the 1950's where only two women in an exhibit and the remaining artists would have to be men or DEAD. Joan discusses how the figure disappeared from her painting process because with abstraction she could not be criticized and her brushstrokes exhibited sinuous strength while her personal life was fragile and mentally in isolation from relationships. Her canine companions would fill her circle of interactions and relationships. Slowly she would allow just certain artists and critics into the circle of her life as an artist. Her interviews are authentic and yet I was able to hear her pain and the struggle to fight her depression. Her paintings are her evidence of her feeling her inspiration and she does not have to explain them to others. Brice Marsden describes her powerful movement in color and composition in her very large un-primed canvases from classical format of the acceptable political art aspirations. Joan talked about her feelings of being an outsider with her days and nights totally reversed. The pain she describes from this isolation and loss of connection are visible in her paintings from this decade in her life. Joan wanted the energy of light in her paintings...she loved Mondrian, Kline and Matisse. But maybe her saving grave in inspiration were Cezanne and Van Gogh. In France she was always seeking the movement if the light ...the light on water... the landscapes in Nature...her home. Joan asks herself "What holds anybody to a painting?" Without light or life there can be no painting connection between the artists and the patrons. The colors are her alphabet...I need to research more about this concept. Her Yellow is Air...for many painters yellow can prove to be a very difficult color to employ in their compositions. Joan's works are enlivened by bright colors as her emotional response to painting what she feels from the inside out. Her visceral approach to visual elements are her realm of her thoughts and experiences. Many feel that is why she was drawn to the house outside Monet's garden...i think she called it Le Grand in valley became her serene safe studio. Her brushstrokes made a lyrical response to her sensations, expressions and experiences were transformed without a subjectivity. The painting process transposes and defines her visual experience onto the canvas for the world to view and study. Joan had a burning sensibility to hide in her abstractions and would reveal her true vulnerability in her pursuit for a sense of balance. During the daylight Joan amasses, collects and absorbs all day long so at night she is able to transpose her experiences in the dark of the night. This helps Joan put herself back together again and she explains the extraordinary in a world we would not expect. Joan discusses with the interviewer the need to keep people involved with the sense of human self...learn to exist as a human being and be true to self allows her to see up close and study elements from afar.

Joan Mitchell is an engaged intense intuitive painter who refused relinquish authority in her painting processes with her self-actualization in her brushstrokes with a mixture of recognizing life and death cycles. She is a role model to sustain her painting against the grain of popularity and documenting her existence in the Art World.

I have a lot of questions and will seek more information about this woman who fought to be accepted for her paintings. I am jazzed by her story and hope to learn more about her. Imagine and Live in Peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart

Sunday, November 22, 2009

a glorious Sunday...




I spent the day with my family moving furniture for preparation for the upcoming Thanksgiving reunion. Our daughter and her husband are bringing us all together in a circle of love in their new home. Young couples have so many stresses that I know I did not have when I was in my twenties and with two beautiful small babies under the age of two. Everyone is coming together to help her and to be honest I have never seen her so happy with this challenge. After we made the official move and relocation I shared some of my own special dinner linens to be used in her family now. One was the hand embellished tablecloth and 8 napkins Ken and I used for our first Thanksgiving years ago and the Fall candle sticks and decorations to set the holiday mood for the families coming together. We then had a home cooked dinner with her slow cooked beef roast that melted in your mouth at first bite. Ken made mashed potatoes that were so creamy we now know we will need twice as many for Thursday feast. Home made crescent rolls made with a recipe from Chance's family that were delicious with melted butter and I did take care to not eat more than two...I know I could do some real harm with all this comfort foods lovingly made by the new younger generation of homemakers. Thank you for your loving ways Erin and your incredible generosity. I feel JOY rising when I look into your eyes as you make preparations for this enormous dinner.

Erin and Chance went out to get a new safe Christmas Tree complete with reindeer jingle bells ready to set the mood for pure frivolity. Believe me their son (he is only 2 1/2) was so excited he could barely contain himself as Dad put the tree with lights together so it could be ready to decorate...he climbed up on the couch and hopped off into the sofa pillows. May we all seek and find the child in our hearts when we celebrate with those we know and love. Take a minute to hold the door for stranger rushing in or out of a chaotic store. Be patient on the roadways and try not to let the sometimes angry drivers get under your skin. Listen with your heart. Find a moment to be calm and rest so your body can with stand the craziness often seen in the time of the year.

I came home a finished a collaboration with a dear friend Seth Apter who is undertaking an enormous challenge of uniting over 100 artists in the 4th Pulse Project. Tomorrow I need to relearn how to send the photos I want to include in this project and I pray this step is not a "too difficult" accommodation for Seth to pull off. I was a little intimidated at the final deadline...would mine be a worthwhile contribution for this incredible process. Self doubt and fear are really enemies when an artist steps out into the unknown. Be patient with me and my processes as I am still a novice when it comes to translating the mystical powers of the Internet. Imagine and Live in Peace, Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart