Today I had a very thorough examination with my doctor. She went over all of the incidentals needed to document my process of living with my companion Lupus. We went over each medication...discussed the event of side effects. Yes, these medications do help to allow me to have a normal livelihood as an artist. But there are days when I am unsure what side is winning ...Lupus or the side effects of particular medications. I have to re-evaluate 1) maintaining a balanced life...resting at intervals when needed and avoid over using my joints and muscles . 2) I need to avoid stress and stressful situations...and people who can stress me out. 3) I need to maintain my medications in an effort to have the energy to share with my family, my work as an artist and continue an altered but cherished life living with Lupus. I am scheduled to have my annual mammogram on Friday and will discuss a bone density test with my specialist when I visit him on March 11. If this all sounds complex it is because it is and the frigid winter temperatures are just another hurdle to leap over. I am grateful for my network of specialists and loving doctors who have guided me through the last decades. I ran a couple errands and came home exhausted so I crawled into bed for a nap. Naps are my friends. Thank you all for your loving support yesterday when I shared my dismay.