Friday, August 12, 2011

cease and desist


Today I am realizing as Mary Chapin Carpenter so aptly stated..."someday you are the bug...and someday you are the windshield". I am sleeping more than a hibernating bear...and still feel exhausted from the mono. I am realizing many things..I am not as young as I think I am...I need to slow down and pace myself much like a sweet tiny turtle. The goal is to finish the race on my own pace... the goal is to take tiny baby steps and strengthen my spirit. Art Saves Lives and I am the proof that working in the creation of sacred marks is the best medicine in so may ways. I listen between naps to Jane Fonda on CNN about the third chapter of her life. Life reflection has provided me a tiny bit of insight to guide my own journey to the last decades of my life with those I love. The studio is my retreat...I am not invisible and I have a purpose to get up and out of bed ...to make my sacred marks for whatever number of days I will walk on this earth. Remain calm and remember to pay attention to the smallest of details. This is a lesson to develop and edit with each morning...the gift of the day is the real present to my heart.

I am on my way downtown to straighten and reorganize the week's process. Our computer is providing us with new challenges ...that is a polite way to say "I really do not know what is happening right now...?? I am working on catching up with my Inchies and will present three on Monday for your review. Ken had a small little portable book printed of my journey with tiny art process. I am amazed when I review the pages I realize how baby steps really can make tiny improvements. I have my hospital appointment next week with my research Lupus specialist and will plan to have the brain specialists take another look at my healing/changes /progression. This should keep me out of trouble for a little while :O).

Have a great day in your studio today and remember me in your frustrations in your process...we are not alone...it just life so as my dear friend Jane told me..."Just Deal with it!!!"
Imagine and Live in Peace. Mary Helen Fernandez Stewart

15 comments:

  1. I suppose I've been out of the loop...I didn't know you had mono. I had it several years ago,during the time my now ex was in full bloom in his affair. Needless to say, I was on my own with that and can understand how you must be feeling. I recall any activity, even taking a few steps to the restroom, was exhausting. I was so excited when I got a clean bill of health, and the first thing I did was go grocery shopping. The smallest of things became a blessing for me.

    I've told you about my relationship with my daughter, so I feel that the remaining decades I have left, should be filled with all that I love and enjoy. I won't or rather, can't and will not, live in the past nor will I accept complaints from those who do, a past they constantly rewrite and modify for their own sense of power and righteousness. As they say, life is short, and honey, I'm almost 10 years into the 2nd half of mine, so there' no room or time for such foolishness and arrogance.

    My sister has another similar saying, "Some days your the statue, others, you're the bird!!" Love it!! Take care, Mary Helen. You are much needed and loved in this world and we are lucky to have you living in it.

    xxoo,
    Georgina

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  2. I am so sorry you have to deal with that! It is not fun! Your inchie, however, is fabulous!!!

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  3. I love this work,little and very sweet!Great!!!

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  4. Day by day, one foot forward and let the rest of the stuff fall in place. Remember what they tell you on the airlines, use the oxygen first then help the person next to you. Staying centered and balanced is always a difficult thing when there is so much that we want to do. You are in my thoughts even when we have spaces between our thoughts. :)Bea

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  5. Glad you are doing some serious self-care. Your inchie is a great metaphor for life! xox Corrine

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  6. I am so sorry that you have mono! I haven't been blog hopping in a while and didn't realize you were sick. Get your rest and hopefully you'll be feeling better soon.
    Your inchie is fabulous! Love the colors.
    Peace,
    cathy

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  7. Mary feel better soon.miss you mucho. Sleep with magical dreams that allow you to soar...
    Su hermana,Cyd

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  8. I usually keep up on your blow via your RSS feed and I just realized it's been days, no more than days since you posted last...just checking in to make sure all is right in your world?

    Thinking of you,
    Marge Burkell

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  9. Blow? I hate autocorrect! BLOG I typed BLOG!

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  10. Greetings dear lady and friend.....I had read this post back after you posted it and thought well I will comment when I get to see the new inches...LOL and you have not been back....I pray that all is well for you and please know many of us miss you here in Blog land! Slow down and take care of you....

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  11. Feel better my friend....my son has it too!Rest,rest, and rest!

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  12. Feel better!! Just do what feels good to you :)

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  13. Are you okay, realized I haven't seen any posts from you? Hope you are on the mend. xox Corrine

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  14. Keep checking in to see if there is any word on how you are doing...hope you are resting and recovering!

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